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The Super 8 camera works, motherfuckers. It's a shitty little handheld Bell & Howell, and anything that's shot on it will probably look totally lame, but it WORKS, and that, my friends, is what's important.

I decided I need to give it a name. I had a dream last night that somebody gave me a little ratty black poodle dog, and all its fur was falling out, and then it turned out that it was Undead, and had come back from the grave so that it could kill cats and eat their flesh. Then today when I took the camera out of the case and was holding it, and loading in the film and batteries and shit, I was really sharply reminded of the intense love I remember feeling for this fucked-up little flesh-eating dog in the dream, and I could remember similarly holding the dog in my hands and stroking its fur. So I'm thinking maybe I should name the camera ZombiePoodle. Except I'm worried that that might just sound stupid, and then everything that was ever filmed with it would be cursed with the black curse of utter stupidity.

Anyway, whatever kind of retarded name I settle on for it, I definitely need to use this camera to make some sucky, pretentious little films at some point so that I can show them to my relatives and beg them to help me pay for a 16mm Bolex, which is a similarly shitty, ancient variety of camera, but it's 16mm, and it looks so pretty that if you saw it, you would want one, too. The problem, though, is that they cost like $600.00, so I would have to be able to convince people that, if they bought one for me, I would be using it to make wonderful, award-winning films of great merit and social import and shit, or they would never spend that much.

I could also just get a fucking job and buy the goddamn thing myself. That would be wicked anyway, because then I would also have to get a 16mm projector, and if you have a 16mm projector, you can buy old newsreels and shit on eBay that are 16mm and watch them on the projector, and it's totally fucking sweet. Or so I hear.

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